Christmas Alone?!


My journey...

within the state of New Jersey & New York has been great so far. However, there have been some struggles that I have recently faced.

It's the holidays

It's cuddle season; It's time to laugh and be "merry"; It's time to be around family, friends, and loved ones. It sounds beautiful, but when you are in a new place, it may be a bit harder to find the things that bring you joy during the holidays.

For the most part, I am a pretty solid person. I did not plan to go home for Christmas because I was excited about spending my first Christmas in NYC. Then my mind changed. Of course though, as the date winded down, the cost of tickets went up and hey, I'm not rich.. yet. With that being said, going home was no longer an option. But, so what? I was going to thug it out! I was like, "Okay, that's fine. I'll just work on AN, and design logos. It's cool."

The Friday before Christmas as I'm running out the door to head to work, I quickly pick up a card in the mail with my name on it. "From Mom." Silly me, I decided to open it on my way to work and that resulted in tears. I was doing so good, but it was so sentimental. Now I'm wondering to myself, how am I going to spend

Christmas Alone?!

The Saturday before Christmas, I listen to a voicemail message from my grandmother. She wished me well, and wanted to know what my plans were for Christmas. Once again, here came the mixed emotions. This time, I decided to check tickets to go Toronto- where my grandmother lives- and got a spark of hope. The tickets were available, and even more surprisingly,

A F F O R D A B L E.

I called my mom to find comfort in making the impulsive decision. She confirmed that yes indeed, it was impulsive,  and slightly irrational. I would be leaving that Saturday night, just to return on Tuesday. Feeling overwhelmed, I realized I had to make the decision on my own- which btw is something kind of impossible for an indecisive person such as myself. So what did I do? I prayed. I wrote a prayer- I took a breath- I bought my ticket and the rest simply fell into place.

I am here now. Currently spending my last night in Toronto. Thankfully. It was a wonderful Christmas and I saw many members of my family that I haven't seen in years. They welcomed me with love and open arms. I am so thankful and give God all the glory!

I say all this to say, do not be afraid to step out on faith. Fear may cause you to slow down and that's okay because you are human. The main thing is: do not allow fear to stop you! Allow your faith to lead you and you just may be surprised as to where it will take you.

Happy Holidays beloved,


Sincerely, Ahni